The future is inevitable. For me, inevitable things are full of fear and anxiety because no matter what you do, it's going to happen and there's no way around that. You can take it in your direction but that doesn't mean it will end up where you wish. Quite terrifying if you ask me.
I would say I'm the type of person to want to have control over most things. I want to know what I'm doing, where I'm going, and when. Of course things don't always work out that way, having everything planned out, but knowing my plan makes me feel secure and sure of things. A big part of what I'm talking about here is my plan for college. I don't know what I want to be or where I want to go, and this is my future here!
People often tell me that life will take me where it will, and for the best, but it's hard to put your faith in others words. What if I don't end up with a nice life? Or if I'm struggling with a job that I dislike? So many things can happen, way too many possibilities. I know that I'm the only one that has a hold of my life so I need to take action and discover. Discover things that I didn't know existed. Look for all the endless possibilities.
Most importantly I need to remind myself that I'm just a teenager. I have time, although not too much, there is time. I need to take that time and use it to it's fullest to truly delve into what could be. I know I'll be amazed at what's out there for me to achieve. There's so many things out there that I can do that will give me personal joy as well as joy to others but I just haven't found it yet, and I, as well as many others, need to realize that that's okay.
